geex.
its like..
being in a line cruiser, safe and sound..
while the exterior is greeted with a freak storm
threathening to swallow us up...
yet.. such a surge of calmness and peace that resides within..
as though.. being under the mighty wings of a protective mother hen.

oh!!
not to mention..
an overwhelming state of unspeakable joyyy.


WOOTS.


right.
busy.
at least.. kinda la.
gonna find time for myself.
like myself. (some time soon. mayb after 26th oct, i will have the time)
hohO!

heee.
after seeing the photo in beloved's blog.
tsktsk.
i kinda like the mr men and little miss.

=))

oh
my
gosh.

i have always thought
reading friend's blog
is one of my favourite pastime.

yet little did i know that NOW,
reading blogs can be one of the
most depressing affair,
of my life.

entries are like so depressing!!
and wads more depressing is that..
they didn't manage to share wad's going on
in their hearts with you.

sad la!
like... damm sad.
i thought mayb i would be a part of
pple's life.
bt yeah. jus thoughts.
they were never confirmed as reality.

oh boyy.
i feeel so sad now
i am going through
all my dears' entries
and like din know they are going through
particular hard times.
and know wad.

you can't help but perhaps, slap yourself
for being such a lousy fren.
a fren that's nt even worth
being brought up to memory
when they are in their sad times..



have i written a depressing entry myself?
??

well.
i have always thought that...
it must have been terrible to have felt helpless
at a certain point of time.

then again.
lets think.
its not so good either.
for the loved ones standing by the side,
being UNABLE to help those in helpless state.
all they could do was stand by and watch
(and i guess, feeling helpless too)


that must have SUCKED.
totally.
geex.

its so funny.
hahahas. it has been some time since the end of
mr project.

wonder why i still feel it
whenever i visit amk.

geex.
will i feel the same
if i ever visit jas's house??

hmm.
wad will the explanation be??


ahahhas.
funny how humans
associate feelings with places/food/pple/music etc..


interesting.
hee.
oh yeah.
last week of hols is gooood!
real family bonding time with each individuals.
hope to reap wad i sow.
=)

just wanna share a little testimony..

on the way back from evening service today,
the chartered bus we were on jammed brake suddenly.
so sudden that shiyong and ranen
fell onto the ground.
while the last row felt a bump.

the driver got off the bus and went to the back.
and i really thought that the bus had broken down.
little did i know that the driver from the MITSUBISHI car at the back
had gotten down as well.

seems like a little heat was going on.
OH! an accident.
but all was in a blur
till the car drove out of the lane
to the side
before all of us got a clearer view
of how bad a state the car was in.
the front was totally smashed up!

very soon after,
our bus drove off.
when we finally reached woodlands mrt,
the curious youths
got down to check out the rear of bus..
wanting to see.
how badly damaged it was.
especially after they saw the state of the car.

BUT! low and behold!
the bus was completely 'alright'!
there was not even a slightest dent!

HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAH!
looks like that brand (refer to the car's brand at the top) is only suitable to be a brand for aircon.
yet. amidst those laughters,
deep down we know why we were unhurt.
why the bus was completely 'untouched' in that sense.
miracle? check this out from the bible.

Luke 10:18-20 (New International Version)

 

 ¹⁸He replied, "I saw Satan fall like lightning from heaven. ¹⁹I have given you authority to trample on snakes and scorpions and to overcome all the power of the enemy; nothing will harm you. ²⁰However, do not rejoice that the spirits submit to you, but rejoice that your names are written in heaven."

i have specifically highlighted and enlarge the words for you.
i want you to see read for yourself, how mighty the hand of protection from God can be!
i am sure the driver (of the car) himself must be wondering why his car got smashed up so badly but
the bus is totally fine! think about it! there WASN'T even any sign on the bus that signifies it was involved in an accident!
even so, isn't it a HUGE sigh of relief that no one got hurt in the process??
i mean.. i could have very well hit the headlines.
suffer injuries to my spine/neck since i am seated closest to the rear.
or even be dead.

"poor driver,
i hope he has bought insurance!!"


and.
i wanna tell you.
you can be UNDER His protection as well!!
against H1N1, against any diseases.
He has conquered all of them through the cruxification.
there are so many forms of blessings one can get.
all through the love of God.

why! why reject it any further??
you don't have to do anything great before
you can get His love.
NO. you DON HAVE to do anything.

Psalms 4:2 (New International Version)

How long, O men, will you turn my glory into shame?
How long will you love delusions and seek false gods?

hear His cries towards you..
you don have to run until your feet is bare and your throat is dry.
you DON HAVE to, anymore.


know that,
His love is unfailing.
acknowledge that
HIs love is enduring.
trust in His love and be like an olive tree flourishing in the house of God.



think about it.

not every doings of man is out of unconditional love.
not every words of man is gonna come to past.

indeed,

Luke 6:42
How can you say to your brother, 'Brother, let me take the speck out of your eye,' when you yourself fail to see the plank in your own eye? You hypocrite, first take the plank out of your eye, and then you will see clearly to remove the speck from your brother's eye.


ya. something that we should ALL ponder about.
there's no exclusion.
gosh.
extreme reflection.
do it.

life has been enriching thus far.
hmmm.
in jus this week alone.
many has happened.
but i will jus highlight the significant impacts to my thinking.

monday:
the usual once-a-month meetup
with the beloveds.
its really fun and cool
that at least each individual
make the effort
to gather once-again.
lotsa laughters and catching up!
shown me once again
that i want these two as beloveds all my life.
=)

tuesday:
woooo.
the miraculous day.
last day of the month and we are still 30 over thousand dollars short to hit the branch target.
big boss is pressuring and branch manager is stressing out.
the consultants are jus plain demoralised and discouraged.
but WOOHOOO! thank God man.
the few Christians prayed out.
and kept claiming for the sales to be here.
guess wad! in the next two hours.
numerous walk-ins streamed in..
we have not only gotten that 30over thousand dollars of sales
but even an extra as well!!
everyone jus went crazy after that!
AHAHHAH!
jus goes to show...
that God's grace is really more than sufficient for us
and..

Matthew 7

 ⁷"Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. ⁸For everyone who asks receives; he who seeks finds; and to him who knocks, the door will be opened.

 ⁹"Which of you, if his son asks for bread, will give him a stone? ¹⁰Or if he asks for a fish, will give him a snake? ¹¹If you, then, though you are evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father in heaven give good gifts to those who ask him! ¹²So in everything, do to others what you would have them do to you, for this sums up the Law and the Prophets.

SEE!
jus ask! believe! and receive it!
man. you should have seen the stunned look
on the bosses' face!
God reigned! =DD

second happening.
which caused a misunderstanding to float around.
there was a surprise visit by brandon that day..
and yeah you guess it!
i don have to contd the story. =P
hahahahahhas.


wednesday:
wooohoOOO!
continued on TDM's mission
and went house visiting.
all went well.
uncle kassim is getting better.
had a treat to msia's mangoteens, rambutans and some unknown fruit.
hahahs. awesome man!
rewarding!
=)
and his life story. have jus further reinforced my decision to become a MEDICAL social worker.
i WILL do more then wad they are doing now!
surely, we can advance against the policies..
surely, we can have a breakthrough!
watch!

thursday:
tiring day. fullstop.

friday:
had a misunderstanding with angie ng..
man..
but i am so glad there was an opportunity to fire it off.
rather then having the anger rumbling inside of me.
bt.. PHEW! all is cleared!
i voiced out and she explained.
case close.
and again, i learnt another lesson.

wads there to come on sat and sun??
i am nt sure. bt i know it will be gooooood!
it will always be goooood with God around. =)

i have a confession to make.

i am..
jealous.
i am..
envious..
i am..
URGH!

wadever words you can describe my feelings
right now that is along that context.

sigh.
wad a negative feeel...
actually..
i should jus convert it to
a form of booster of encouragement/motivation..
and.
'tear down the walls'
is really a good song to cheer me up..
it fits my emotions, perfectly..


let it happen!

got back from youth late last night!
woooots!
it was... WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!

amazing. =))


totally enjoyed myself throughout the camp.
had great foood.
and i do believed i have gained much weight
from the buffet for EVERY single meal.
heee. =P

did a little of shopping..
and so glad kor and ray loved it..
spent close to 50 sing jus on
local food produce to bring back.
wheeeeeeeeeeeeee.
they are jus toooooooooo cheap!



and. had fish spa.
very nice!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
=P wheeee you wheeeeeeeeettt!





but.. DANG!
its 18mths later to the next youth camp.
sigh..
on a happier note, its youth conference this dec!!
=DD
wooHOOOO!





PLUS, i am very happy and excited of God's plan for the future!
=))) woOOTs.
yeah!

woohoO!!!

youth camp is on in abt 7 hours time!!
heeeeeeeeeeeeeeha!

gonna go mia this whole week friends!
don miss me!!


wheeeeeeeeeee!
yay groupings
yay roommates
yay leaders
yay groupmates
yay.
ITS YOUTH CAMP!!


cya friends! =)

nonono.
no.

don ask if i love you.

ask instead,
how much do i love you.

bcos its no longer the former.

hmmm.
i wonder wads gotten into me today.
total sian-sation.
sigh.
and i think, my attitude towards the kiddos
is so unfair and uncalled for.
thankfully.
i managed to draw myself back just in time
before i am really being unprofessional.

hmmm.
i would say.
hey! its a total new experience today!!
someone heaved all over my body.
HAHHAH!
tsktsk.

oh gosh..
mummy's gonna be unhappyyyyyyyyy.
geeex!

if say...
for every time i gotten 'fly kite -ed' at..

i would say..
hey.
its HIGH TIME to open a kite stall now!!


would ecp be goood?
or. how about changi?




sigh.

geex..
it was SLC last weekend.
although i din manage to show my face.
yet. while i was at home.
i reminisced about the days.
it was really a felt-good!

hmmm.
how should i put it..
it was a night in 2004.
where all of us dreamt.
where all of us were invincible.
where all of us went out bravely.
where all of us.. gave our all.
where all of us shouted. 'I AM THE BEST SIR & MAAM!!!!!!;'

no doubt.
it was the night.
where our confidence SOARED like nuts.
it is the type of confidence where neither you nor i can stop it.
no.. no one can. =)

and strangely enough.
it is only with this special event where
the totally-out-of-the-mind confidence can be relieved, once again.


i love 22nd student council!
and yes. i GREW frm there.
it was my starting point.

i completely comprehend the rationale for
the disappointment and embarrassment i have felt.

i was lost..

and.

i was arrested
by the convictions that i WILL never want to let go.

never.


can't wait for june 15th-19th!!
YOUTH CAMP at KL!
woohoO!

while there are still ears to listen...


SAY IT!

HA HA HA.
how funny.




HA

HA

HA.

mummy.
i really wanna eat an apple.
can you get one for me?
jus one.
pleaase?